I bought flowers today when I shopped for my groceries. I felt that the colorful bouquet would bring some cheer into the home. As I was leaving the store I had a sudden urge to give them to some random person in the parking lot. I didn’t though: because I didn’t want anyone to think I was weird. I often hand out my change to the homeless: Randy once looked at me like I had two heads because I only had a $20 bill in my wallet so I gave it to a man begging in front of the grocery store. Even the man looked at me a little oddly. But I’ve never thought about how it would make someone feel to just receive a bouquet of flowers, just for the sake of making them feel good. I can’t help but to think that doing something kind like that could catch on. And maybe…. just maybe…. people would start feeling better about the world and each other. But, I brought the flowers home instead, because, like I said: I didn’t want anyone to think I was weird.
It’s a sad day when you think someone will think you’re weird because of a random act of kindness.
Can you imagine how nice a place this world would be if people did that? How being really kind could really brighten peoples days? I wish I had a greener thumb: I would buy little vases from the dollar store and pick the flowers from my garden and put them in a booth at the top of my driveway with a sign that read ” flowers for the cost of a smile”. But, my gardening skills are lacking and the best you will pick from my garden these days are dandelions. Not that dandelions are bad : they provide bees with early food in the spring to make honey.
Sam was kind. He befriended the people that others wouldn’t. He could see through the harsh or ” weird” facades that the lonely people hid behind. As a parent, I wished he would make friends with the more” normal” kids. But I understood later in life, that there was nothing abnormal about the friends that he chose. He could see people for who they really were. He didn’t want to see anyone left out, so he befriended those who needed it the most. Sam was a very empathetic person. Those who knew him, were very lucky.
I am trying to establish a legacy for my son: a legacy of kind acts, and paying it forward. I know that he made a difference in the world during the short time that he was here. I want to continue that for him.
Don’t get me wrong: I am kind. I don’t kill insects and I even save spiders although they terrify me. I once saved a black widow that was inside my dining room screen. I believe that all living creatures want nothing more than to survive and live in this world for the duration of their natural life. People think I’m strange for that, but that doesn’t bother me. We are all a part of something much bigger than we know. And we should be helping each other out as best as we can. That includes spiders.
It doesn’t bother me that people think I’m weird for saving insects, but it does bother me if they think I’m weird for trying to brighten someone’s day. 🤔 The next time, I am going to give the flowers away.